I’m on an Elijah kick.
Sometimes in life I feel like God sticks me on a verse, person, or book in the bible & I just can’t get out. And so here I am… stuck on Elijah.
But first let’s get to the obvious, looming question… why has it been so long?! Why have I not posted in a couple weeks?
Well, I could list all of the crazy things in life that have happened over the course of these 3 weeks but let’s be honest… you probably had a crazy few weeks as well. But here’s the root of why it’s been so long, and why I’m probably stuck on Elijah… my computer crashed. It crashed when I was rolling on some sermons, blog posts, and feeling crazy inspired with ideas (which is hard these days with 2 littles and a job).
But it did- It just crashed. No warning. Nothing magical (or irresponsible) happened to my computer previously… Just one day it worked, the next it just wouldn’t turn on. It was a sad day. A day where I looked at this first world problem for what it was, smiled and nodded, knowing that “God works all things together for the GOOD for those who love him…”
Yeah, that’s not what I did. Honestly, I let it get to me. It bogged me down. It discouraged me. It made me unmotivated and irritated. & it began a series of events that just flat messed me up.
Now before you judge me… you know it happens to ALL of us. And it’s not my stupid computer that does it. It’s the change of plans, the sudden wave of life’s full on craziness, or the series of circumstances that weigh us down and get us in a funk that we can’t get out of.
It happens. It messes us up. It gets us sidetracked, confused, discouraged.
But what does Elijah have to do with a computer crashing or being in a funk? Funny you should ask, check out this passage that God so conveniently led me to (don’t you just love it when God does that)…
1 Kings 19:1-3
When Ahab got home, he told Jezebel everything Elijah had done, including the way he had killed all the prophets of Baal. 2 So Jezebel sent this message to Elijah: “May the gods strike me and even kill me if by this time tomorrow I have not killed you just as you killed them.”
3 Elijah was afraid and fled for his life. He went to Beersheba, a town in Judah, and he left his servant there. 4 Then he went on alone into the wilderness, traveling all day. He sat down under a solitary broom tree and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life, for I am no better than my ancestors who have already died.”
Recap: Elijah completely defeated the false god Baal. He called rain down from heaven after a 7-year drought. He killed the false prophets (single handedly), and he proved (in a crazy radical way) that GOD, is GOD.
And people were saved. Lives were changed. The nation of Israel was changing because of Elijah and God working in & though him.
Then, his computer crashed.
Elijah gets word from Jezebel that “I’m coming after you,” and almost immediately after he hears this..he’s shaking in his boots and wants to die.
So, what’s the point? What does this have to do with funks and being discouraged and God?
Elijah forgot. He forgot in the WHO of who sent, called, and sustained him. He forgot that God was and is more powerful than Jezebel or whatever enemy was hunting him down.
His computer crashed and it broke him down.
This hit me hard. So many times I have read this passage and thought, “Elijah how on earth are you scared of Jezebel after you just preformed all of these miracles and saw God work like he did- CLEARLY God is on your side?!”
But the reality is… so often I. AM. ELIJAH.
I see God do incredible things. I witness miracles and healings and changed lives… and then my computer crashes.
At the slightest sign of hardship or persecution or difficulty… I get all “woe is me” and break down. I get discouraged, defeated, and D O N E. & it messes with me. It discourages me. It drags me down.
But here’s the hope I have in the crash. The hope I have in the lesson or challenge or whatever it is you want to call it.
Remember who you are.
Remember who’s you are.
Remember… the WHO.
WHO has led and called and shaped you thus far.
That’s where I’m at. In in the remembering. The pushing. The renewing part. Getting my mind right and letting my heart stay full.
But at the end of the day, here is my prayer…
To keep in step.
Keep in step with the God who has called and is calling me each day.
To keep in step in the big.
To keep in step in the small.
To keep in step in the “no steps.”
To simply walk with Christ day in, day out and trust that my crash will become a revival and renewal that I desperately needed.
It will be the time I needed to get focused. To REMEMBER my purpose, my calling, my hope.
So keep in step & remember.
Day by day. Hour by hour. Minute by minute.